“It’s going to take more than words,” she said.
I acknowledged the sentiment with something along the line, “of course, I realize this.”
But internally, my mind raced. Words are my domain. Words are my way. I can communicate with these, and with such distance between us, how else should I pursue? I’ve rarely been so sure of what I wanted, but to complicate matters, I’ve also rarely been so unsure as how to obtain such. Of course want I want is nothing to obtain… not a prize, not a trophy, but nevertheless a treasure.
“It’s going to take more than words,” she said. And my heart felt a prick against it… as what was said was like my kryptonite, my weakness. It was taking away my strength, and I was once again a mere mortal.
And suddenly I feel foolish, because I’ve not even heard her own words… those precious gems that I value so much. I had been blinded somehow and for a week she has been so detailed, so meticulous. She had taken my verbosity and one-upped me. She is no prey, but I somehow am not a predator either. A dream she has dreamed, an effect she has caused, a bubble she has broken; she has reminisced on rules and relationships, and alliterated like a Pentecostal pastor. And I ask her what’s going on, and obtain her answer of little consequence. I know there is so much more, and I’m determined to break the lock of the treasure chest, somehow—for what heart does not lie in a chest?
I can’t find the key, but if it exists, I’ll search it out. I’m not just words, I swear. I’m not crazy, I swear. I’m not every other man, I swear. Every word is backed by its weight in gold, and I dare her to cash them in.
This chase is foolish to my logic, but I frankly don’t care. My pursuit may indeed be destined for failure, but if I don’t pursue this treasure, my heart will be cursed forevermore. This is not even the main quest, but the start of it. I must have this treasure with me, and together we may press on, press upward. Further up and further in.
I’ll put on a happy face
I say I’ll wait with a touch of grace
But I wonder aloud about this chase
And wish we were in one place